I had told myself that people are stupid. As stupid as I'm. They won't understand me and neither would I ever be able to understand them. Infact it was because I gave up understanding people that I stopped expecting anyone to understand me. I decided the life go by. I would live everyday. Meet my friends over weekend and have a ball of a time. But then one fine day something big happened.
That day when I was told a secret i was totally taken aback. Shocked because I had never experienced a situation like that. So when I was confronted with the truth of some friends by themselves I stayed quite. I'm only trying to accept people because one day may be I would need that kind of acceptability with my own shortcomings or situations.
So again I was into the whole close friend drama. But then when those people started misunderstanding my extreme love and actions I backed out. I was called Judgmental and Rigid. I was sad and disappointed. I shouldn't be expecting this. But the fault I again let people let in. If I gave someone power to love I also gave them power to hurt me.
I went sleep early last night but with a heavy heart. Tried to console my own self with no one to speak to. I avoided confronting anyone because it turns around that I'm a fool who allows people to hurt and affect me. I don't want those intelligent and practical people advising me I'm at fault. I just want them to see how wrong the others were and why they should change not me.
When I woke up this morning and finally chose to share. I realized one more thing that no one is ever wanting to hear you out. Everyone their own agenda in life. When u will share your problem they will want to sort out their own misery too. Irrespective if you ready to solve their problem or no. Now that is an expectation everyone has to be heard. But at the same time when U have shared you story to relieve your own self. It just got tough for me.
The day started at a not so happy note. The feeling of being alone and being not understood is not really cool. I must sail through. I must find happiness today may be at the gym. Or may be umm... meet at old friend or call them. Because people are not gonna change They will always have their agenda up 1st before yours. So give them an ear. Listen to them. And let go off your own pain through things you like to do. I would live my day today. I would not live it to meet anyone's expectations. Today my aim to the day would be to aim something happy. Those who want to help me towards it would be welcome. And yes I would call them friends.
I went sleep early last night but with a heavy heart. Tried to console my own self with no one to speak to. I avoided confronting anyone because it turns around that I'm a fool who allows people to hurt and affect me. I don't want those intelligent and practical people advising me I'm at fault. I just want them to see how wrong the others were and why they should change not me.
When I woke up this morning and finally chose to share. I realized one more thing that no one is ever wanting to hear you out. Everyone their own agenda in life. When u will share your problem they will want to sort out their own misery too. Irrespective if you ready to solve their problem or no. Now that is an expectation everyone has to be heard. But at the same time when U have shared you story to relieve your own self. It just got tough for me.
The day started at a not so happy note. The feeling of being alone and being not understood is not really cool. I must sail through. I must find happiness today may be at the gym. Or may be umm... meet at old friend or call them. Because people are not gonna change They will always have their agenda up 1st before yours. So give them an ear. Listen to them. And let go off your own pain through things you like to do. I would live my day today. I would not live it to meet anyone's expectations. Today my aim to the day would be to aim something happy. Those who want to help me towards it would be welcome. And yes I would call them friends.
