Single Man battle

There was this moment when I felt that shitty. Someone very close to me said I got through my 1st big job by fluke. It hurt me immense. Maybe it was just in rage, maybe in anger we speak to hurt others. But that moment has stayed with me until now.
Exactly few months back my very close friend told me that he felt it wasn't that great of a deal to have gotten through a job at 18years old. I always felt a sense of achievement with how I made it to an airline job at 18. But then soon when I was down I started using it as a shield to tell people that I'm worth big things and that job at 18 was a big thing and is a great example. But I guess I might have over done it.
My other friend from Chennai called up to say that my current career choice was going way too slow. He suggested I join airline back. I hated those lines. Esp. when your good friends and people who are close to you speak like this.
Right now I feel broken. May be so far people were being nice. May be at 18 a big job with great package wasn't a big deal. But it's sad that it's used to shut me up when I'm angry and get very verbal.
I'm sad that what I vouched on all my life so far is not that big of a deal for people I feel close to.


Maybe, I'll become someone big someday. For now I've learned to believing in my own self. Because no one really is close to you. I love myself and I would have never told myself such harsh things what people throw at me.
Well, it's nice that I have certain people in life to cater to certain emotions and wants me life. But these guys, I realized are not my life. It is a single man battle. and I must fight it alone.