Arun Ice Cream

Recently I shot for a pretty huge ice cream brand from South of India. Arun Ice-cream. What I didn't knew until very recently that it was the Amul Ice cream of south. In that manner Im happy to be part of something that big.
I got an oppurtunity to work with the best production house and ofcourse, my high was being cast opposite Kainaz Motivala. She has acted as Ragini in Ragini MMS. The movie fared well at the box office. I was certainly mesmerized by her since she debuted in Wake Up Sid where she did a cameo opposite Ranbir.

This could have been another experience but I think the people involved in the shoot were amazing.

Here some pictures from the shoot -

Friends, not really !

When I went to bed last night I told myself - It has happened again. People who I made my friends took me for granted again. Why I don't see friends who want to be friends with me for the sole purpose of friendship.

I had told myself that people are stupid. As stupid as I'm. They won't understand me and neither would I ever be able to understand them. Infact it was because I gave up understanding people that I stopped expecting anyone to understand me. I decided the life go by. I would live everyday. Meet my friends over weekend and have a ball of a time. But then one fine day something big happened.

That day when I was told a secret i was totally taken aback. Shocked because I had never experienced a situation like that. So when I was confronted with the truth of some friends by themselves I stayed quite. I'm only trying to accept people because one day may be I would need that kind of acceptability with my own shortcomings or situations. 

So again I was into the whole close friend drama. But then when those people started misunderstanding my extreme love and actions I backed out. I was called Judgmental and Rigid. I was sad and disappointed. I shouldn't be expecting this. But the fault I again let people let in. If I gave someone power to love I also gave them power to hurt me.

I went sleep early last night but with a heavy heart. Tried to console my own self with no one to speak to. I avoided confronting anyone because it turns around that I'm a fool who allows people to hurt and affect me. I don't want those intelligent and practical people advising me I'm at fault. I just want them to see how wrong the others were and why they should change not me.

When I woke up this morning and finally chose to share. I realized one more thing that no one is ever wanting to hear you out. Everyone their own agenda in life. When u will share your problem they will want to sort out their own misery too. Irrespective if you ready to solve their problem or no. Now that is an expectation everyone has to be heard. But at the same time when U have shared you story to relieve your own self. It just got tough for me.

The day started at a not so happy note. The feeling of being alone and being not understood is not really cool. I must sail through. I must find happiness today may be at the gym. Or may be umm... meet at old friend or call them. Because people are not gonna change  They will always have their agenda up 1st before yours. So give them an ear. Listen to them. And let go off your own pain through things you like to do. I would live my day today. I would not live it to meet anyone's expectations. Today my aim to the day would be to aim something happy. Those who want to help me towards it would be welcome. And yes I would call them friends. 

Happy New Year 2013

2013 started with much Halla Gulla. I was with my usual friends house partying on New Years eve. This time around I planned to cook. The easiest I could have thought of is making Spaghetti with either white or red sauce. I chose both for different palates. The dishes turned out oh-so-average. But then this is an usual affair. My food turns out very average tasting. But then we had Gulab Jamun made by Aditi. So I hogged on to it the most. And left the momos for next morning. We had Shilpa join us too. This may be was the last time we met her before she leaves India for good to settled down in Germany with her husband. Shiva seemed in full. He finished a bottle of wine and how !

Here are some pics from the party --

Wish U all a happy and sexy 2013.

Iss pyaar ko kya naam doo

Today a friend deleted me from her FB list. Reason - Her long time Boyfriend does not approve of me. It's just not that this story alone has such element. In past I have had girls who have deleted me for the same reason. The boy friends do not approve of me. So if I get a friend request from such people again I know it is either that their love has fallen apart or, no mostly this is the reason these girls and guys get back on the social circuit and add you back.

Love has immense power to make the most clever and sorted people act stupid. A close friend of mine chooses to over look stories of her Boyfriend cheating on her. Love is blind, indeed. Recently when I saw another girl friend of mine not in my list I knew the boy friend must have had some problem with me. They must have fought and I was out. But why do we let love not look like  love anymore ?

I always believe two people should come together and stay together if it makes them happy. If not, people should move separate ways and not waste time.

My cousin updated on Facebook - We don't have to explain we love someone, just show it. I agree so much to this. Infact this somewhere helps me sort out better. So if love exists it shows.

When I went through a bad phase it was tough for me too. I would cry all by myself alone like  a kid but then I cried not because I was made to do things against my will but because I knew I would lose that person if I didn't give in. But I couldn't give in to someones ego. Surrendering in love is what I can do best, but when ego I have to serve to I quit. I quit that one in May 2008.

Another one today sent me a MISS u text. So why did we not miss each other when it was on. Why do we show love when it is gone. I feel it is more like - I know it is over now no point being mean, send something sweet as we are no more accountable to each other, reaching to that expectation won't be expected by each other. May be a quickie might just come my way - See this is what I look at it as. You guys reading might have your own views. To this sudden text out of the blue I replied to with tonnes of smileys =D =D =D No words.

We are yet waiting for Amit to return. 25th August marks Kittu Damini Amit and my one year completion of knowing each other. We totally rocked 2012. I would ever be so thankful to these guys to have stepped into my life.

We are now planning for the 31st party. I'm sure it going to fun with some good friends around. I will post some pictures here to show you guys what I did on new years.

Stay tuned !

A weekday well spent

12th Dec 2012 turned out to be quiet an eventful day for me.

I met Neil ( my gym friend ) at the ... gym (lol) after a long time. We walked back from gym till K-star so we could catch up on each others life.

While waiting for the bus I was surprised to see Karishma and Shivankit in Chembur.
Neil took off from the bus stop while I accompanied these two non-chemburkars to Kharghar where we were joined by Kittu.
Kittu and I had still so much to talk about Mussoorrie but seemed we were boring the intelligent lot of our group so we engaged in topic best for the foursome.

Straight from the gym my stomach was shouting to have some protein intake so my friends from Kharghar took me to a beautiful place called Tava. We all relished on our Sholay kabab and Lassooni Kabab and headed to CBD to meet the 5th person from our group - Damini (lol).

She carried with her 24 double trouble and we ended the day on chocolaty note. Why does the unplanned days work the best ?

Daddy Dearest

I'm continuously striving to see the positive in every aspect of my life. But it's not always easy.

Belgium 2009

I was 18 when I got through my 1st and only real job. It was also my 1st interview ever and my father had accompanied me. He had full faith in me but I doubted the world outside my colony. Getting through an Airline job was tough especially when my colony was the only world I'd ever known. I had nothing to lose hence staying positive came easy to me. And it worked.

For my interview I got a suit stitched and my dad readied my documents. I remember he had also accompanied me to the passport office at Worli. At that point I was religiously preparing for that one question - So, tell us something about you  ? And I'm glad it was asked in each round by different people.

He had waited for hours outside the building for me. When I finally stepped out to give the big news he calmly replied - Mujhe Toh Pata Tha (I knew it) !!! He was the happiest I could tell and boasted about my achievement for the next 4 years until I quit.

First Class Service Training 2008

He hated my decision to quit. He had rightly warned me about the change of lifestyle post this job. It did get tough for me as I shifted from Rickshaw to Bus and from London to Lokhandwala. But flying had to come to an end.

Flying was special. It was nothing I imagined it to be and everything I couldn't have possibly dreamed about ever. The flight attendants job was one of the best things that happened to me. It gave me more than I could have asked for and I'm ever so thankful to the company. Quitting that job put an end to certain insecurities but on the other hand it gave way to some new ones.

Buckingham Palace 2007

Today I think I had more fire in me at 18 then now at 25 - No pun. I was passionate about becoming something in life until over exposure spoiled me. My life - and all our lives -are filled with challenges that make it difficult to always stay positive. I want to be like the horse with blinkers. It sees only what's in front and keeps going. I think I need to focus better. Or maybe I'll just ask my Dad to accompany me to Karan Johars office. His company might just work again you see. And the horse and the philosophy can go get some fodder.



Anyway, let me check - Dadddddddddd....

Insecure Basket

When Lily called up to wish me on my birthday she had a big news to share. She said her sister has found her a good match and she is certain that she is marrying him. It felt like a thoughtless decision taken on the basis of her current hectic work schedule and lack of socializing. But the truth about my angst was that I was insecure yet again.

When Lily left for Mexico nothing else seemed same as before. I made new friends but couldn't repeat the same bond with anyone. So the thought of sharing Lily with someone was upsetting. I thought I was losing yet another great friend. I felt very insecure and doubted if anyone understands friendship like I do. I was certainly not making any sense.

One of my friend Shakshat once asked me to not trust anyone but my own self. I wondered how could I completely give or receive love without trusting anyone ? Did that logic mean I can hurt anyone or act irresponsibly and back off by saying - I had told ya not to trust me !! Friendship means more to me so I bid him a mental farewell ( taking into account his other antics too ).

I was told I'm a great friend to have around. A Virgo all the way, I'm great at giving advice and I almost love unconditionally. So when I got closer to someone new Aneeka stopped hanging out with me giving lame excuses. It was unfair and drained me emotionally.

After days of avoiding I met Lily again on Facebook. She seemed as absorbed with the new development in her life but was worried if I felt left out. She was quick to show she cared and it instantly made me happy again. Her words made me realize that what we share is exclusive and will remain one forever. And what her to-be-husband will provide her is what I won't take responsibility for.  What if I found someone ? Her reassurance was all I needed to understand why the whole world left and she stayed to become my best buddy ever. We are priceless.

Well, friends are friends because they share something very stupid in common and not because things they don't. Bad intention are unforgivable but a friend can always be forgiven. I realized I had to ignore differences and give my friends a lot of space to create a beautiful bond. I shall never ever be insecure about losing my friends because the real ones will always stay even if I goof up big time or act stupid.

So there I was cool as a cucumber understanding fraands and fraandships.

( Names of people and places are changed )